It Hasn't Been An Okay Week

The other day I started my day by confessing, for the first time, my long history of abuse to a family member. Including from my aunt, God rest her soul. Brought us, back, a few bad memories. I had very few good memories of her, but she asked my forgiveness when she clearly knew she was dying, and I readily gave it.

I saved over 500 new family photos, memories and a few ancestors. Even the family tree Jen out together. Below is one I found of a bunch of animals.


The past week it seems I've been looking for many chances to go out and spend up my savings on stuff I don't need, despite a short pay period this month. 

I went from 300 to 222 dollars. Some necessary...some not. 

Last night I did something that could get me fired. I left the cash register drawer out on the legacy desk, (so awful I hesitated to write it) 

We weren't closed, and though I kept it within a few feet of me, I put it down to go make a purchase at the register with Kelsey. 

I felt so very horrible about that. We all do truly stupid things. It's not okay, but it is so true.

My manager does check cameras often, so if she sees it (or higher management points it out) I'll lose this job for sure. Dreading that. 

We'll see if this passes or not. 

But I made a mistake. Momentary mistakes can cost you a lot. 

Today. Fighting with temptation before I even got out of bed.

Crocheted first thing and got very frustrated that the pattern kept not working 😕 and on top of that the overactive bladder kicks in. And then I start fighting God because I'm so absorbed and determined to crochet that I put Him aside. 

Also not a good feeling. 😕 

Allergies today, too. 

So yeah. Praise Jesus. Thank the Lord. Amen. God is able and good. 

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