Feels Like More Than a Month

God is faithful. Psalm 36:5, “Your mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens; Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds

Weeks ago I qualified to get a food box from a local church food drive. 

Today, I both did a food stamps interview AND I applied for deferment to help my battle with student loans. My phone bill also went down from $60 to $25 due to T-Mobile's billing error. 

Jen protested about the food stamps at first, because she receives them and we live on the same land...and I pay her rent (whether or not she reports it is her knowledge) but I chose not to argue...as is God's way.

I did what I usually do. Go to a private place to my knees and cry to Him. If he felt I shouldn't apply, I'd accept. If he felt I should, I'd accept. 

I wasn't angry at her. But I only wanted His leading and intervention. Which He promptly did. 

He always does. 

She knows its my habit to go cry. (An insecure voice says maybe she rolls her eyes at it by now) I don't know if she knows it's to pray also. I've been caught on my knees. 

I'm still ashamed to publicly cry.

Anyway, only minutes after praying she asked me to come talk to her. 

I took a minute to compose myself (I told God I didn't want to hear anger for seeking help I needed) and He kept saying, "I am with you."

She was talking to Grandpa and long story short, we reached a compromise. I applied. 

Other news:

- I learned today that 'Green Hair Mike' died. He was a family friend (we weren't close.) He gave me my first (howbeit regrettable) tattoo when I was a young adult. 

The saddest part is I doubt he was saved. 

His soul is somewhere. I can't confirm where. But it's a scary/sobering thought that if he wasn't saved after all, that he is now in eternal darkness. I'd rather be wrong. But I'm not the Judge. 

May God comfort his family. 

P.S. I still pray for the famed athiest/scientist Richard Dawkins. And Stephen Fry. Old men. Time running out. And Ricky Gervais to come home.

- Phyllis Schober, a nice old lady at church, also died. August 1st. She loved sharing about her week with me every Sunday. Whether it was another week of more exhaustive doctor visits or a fun party listening to an Elvis impersonator named Jason. I've no doubt where 'her' soul is. 

We recently attended her memorial and the children loved the food and extra time to play.

- Joined playing on Canva a lot. Made a lot of Ai videos and YouTube thumbnails 

- I had a very fun library visit (rare, if not a ome-time deal) and saved some new patterns.

- A few shopping trips and McDonalds visits. 

- Uploading video crochet tutorials. 

- Uploading the kids' puppet shows for them. 

- Buckling down on paying off student loans..so far. 

- I might have a opportunity to help out at the FiveBelow store in Augusta. 

- Started sewing a Mickey Mouse from a 1933 sewing pattern. Not done yet. 

- I got a new Bible...or two. One full of study material and the other with room to write in the margins and it asks personal questions. 

- Enjoying Max Lucado's book, 3:16. 10/10 I highly recommend. Hard to put down.

- 'A Child Called It' was, ahem, also hard to put down but it was too much for me to read.

- Gas money got spent up quickly, especially as I got asked for it much more often. Down to $60 until payday. 

I don't mind paying, but my concern is being asked so much that it runs out ahead of the next payday.  

- Still been working through Genna Tatu's anigurumi pattern book AND I just got the Woobles pattern book. Yay! Now I can do 'Fred the Dino' without the expensive kit!

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